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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 08:05

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Why is the show The Big Bang Theory so hated?

He resisted the act ,that day.

(And it was in our own minds.)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

How has your life changed since starting college?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She wouldn,t have been !

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

What did i know ?

My life is so biszare .

Do you love fat pussy?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Why does my 5-year-old daughter keep repeating the words 'they will come for us, they will find us and touch us'? I'm quite scared.

So whats the point in blame.

And i lived it daily.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I was very sick at this time too.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Who then, do I blame.?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Would this be the day?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Ive learnt so much.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was scared of men, in general

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Put me off passion for life!!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

This is soul school!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She married twice! .

As i do to all so called friends.?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I write beautiful poetry .

But it wasn’t much.

I was seconnd youngest,

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She found it foreign!.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But, we were locked up after school.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My family never makes their pension either.

So, i spoilt her more .

Im still living with it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

It was going to be , some day.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She was in good health!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I don,t even have a pension.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

All the time i was locked up.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

One cannot live in the past .

We all went to grammer schools

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I will be 64.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He knew the spot.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I think the readers, may guess!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

When she asked me how she looked .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was 9 years of age.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We were not on the streets..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Comes on , in middle age.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I said to her

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I waited trembling.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I have no regrets .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She loved him until the end.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!